Tuesday, 07 July 2009
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Chasing After the Wind
I'm going to be a little sinical.
My life sucks right now. I know this is kind of an outlandish statement, but i can't deny the way i feel at this present time. It seems like my life is going in a never ending circle. I keep getting stuck from one dead end job to the next, i can't pay my bills, and i still live at home. I sometimes feel as if i'm going to end up living at home till i'm 40, at least. I can't take it anymore. I want things to be different. I want to be able to pay my bills, to live on my own. For the first time in my life i feel there is no hope. It is such a nasty feeling ,not having hope. I've always managed to hold on to it, but at this moment, i feel nothing but self pity. I want out.
I know i should think about the blessings, that my mom still allows me to live at home, for free. That I am able to work. That there is a higher purpose to this life than making ends meet. But it's so hard to focus on the higher calling, when my imediate needs are not being met. I suppose it's all my fault. But there has to be, there just has to be some way to pull out, and turn around. To get back on my feet again. I guess all i can do now is pray for Guidance.
Lord Please deliver me from this situation which i have gotten myself in. I know that i have been selfish, but I need you to make it right. Please Lord, make it right.Help me not to WANT ,but to ACCEPT; and to be a good steward of what I have been BLESSED. Amen.
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